feel like curling up in a ball and crying myself to death

once again my tumblr is for me to rant and get all my anger out so i dont go kick the shit out of a certain someone to death and so i dont hurt myself hopefully ill do neither but if i did one it wouldnt be a big loss to the world haha fucking twat head had anough of this now but oh well lol ive always told myself i dont need anyone when im all alone to make myself feel better like i dont need anyone but it would be nice to have a friend but thats asking to much isnt it like ever i sound like a right selfish twat wanting one friend i actually hate myself for wanting a friend to talk to right now i feel like a selfish cunt maybe thats why i can never have a close friend all my close friends leave i should take the hint no one wants me why am i so stupid why dont i get no one likes me why do i fool myself in to believing people want to be my friend ever im such a thick dickhead why havent i realised yet if my own dad doesnt want to know me why would anyone else hmm i should of been drowned at birth if im this thick i really wish sometimes that i was dead itd make everyone elses lives so much easier not like anyone would miss me anyway abit of my family would my bf would thats it haha great

lol i actually dont have any friends at all anymore great oh well some people are very childish and twats but whatever im gonna piss off again like usual used to this now so cant be to upset about it fuck it forever alone xD friendship wise anyway i got my bf so thats ok im not totally alone so im fine lol good times *sarcasm*

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I’ve started burning myself on my hands not enough so it leaves marks but enough so it hurts me and cutting my faces in pictures of myself when I get upset or mad :/ i think I’m going insane but I have reason to be mad if you say this is a good pic and it’s with your ex and your cuddling but kk whatever!!! FUCK SAKE!! I like watching the flames when I have fire it’s something that calms me down plus just clicking the lighters is alot of dun and when they explode when you throw them is pretty epic!! But yeah I’m cool again…..:/

Pissed off about always being second best -_-
Was second best to Kyle when he was with his family he treated me like crap
Was second best to Ross with his mates and other girls
Was second best to alex to a girl he liked
Was second best to conor to mates, fags and booze
Worst one second best to my dad when it came to booze
I hate my life always second best having those thoughts again oh well dm fuck it

Ex boyfriend texting me out of nowhere asking if I’m a lezbo xD naa I’m not I’m seeing a guy ATM an he’s much better in bed than him and he’s just right for me ATM just what I need just who I need what a nosey dickhead lmao gossip is so much fun haha everyone is so pathetic that’s amused me xD

Nan- thinks I’m a slag who will get pregnant and doesn’t believe I’ll amount to anything
Uncle- thinks I’m fat and no one will ever love me
Dad- wants me dead wishes I was never born I’m a bitch and no one will ever love me
Grandad- he didn’t tell us my great nan had died (the only nan I liked who wasnt a bitch) and they didn’t invite us to the funeral which was on my birthday and scatted the ashes without telling us and there isn’t anything to mark it or anywhere to visit for her
Auntie- hates us tries to replace us and doesn’t want anything to do with us or give us info like when my great nan died

Well aren’t I blessed with such a loving family -_- the only family I’ve got now is my mum and bros end of it’s a wonder I can act so happy with all this shit going on FFS bad times

I just give up and to top it off my stupid ex is being a dickhead AGAIN I give up now fuck it!!

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